“Kuaa… Kuaa..." were the very
first words I spoke. I recall that day, on this last day, a day when people
smiled in spite of my cries.
Just a month into this world and Liz
forced us to bend-a little on both the sides-forming a crescent. Her mom
clasped her hands and screamed, "Look! Look! She’s smiling!" Then, a
year later, she made me shrivel up and looked at her father. The embarrassed
man kissed her on the cheeks and said, “oh, no, dear, you’ll catch germs
there!" Slowly, she started to learn how to bend us the other way round.
Oh our body used to ache a lot. Didn't she know it takes only four muscles to
smile but sixty four to frown? She learnt a lot of new ways to twist and turn
me so that each new noise she made, delighted everyone around her. "Mama"
"Papa" "Nani" "No" "Iceam peease"
After that for the next 20 years I
really worked a lot- reciting multiplication tables, Wordsworth and history
charts. Somewhere down this line she decided I am doing quite a good job and
she decided to become an Inspirational speaker. After that, it was I who was
most popular. For the next ten years, I was all into motivation and leadership.
At this time, I felt her press me really too hard. She bit me slightly and
spoke so softly, "I love you.” I gave a start and looked up. “Oh, it's
you, Michael. Hey, not now, not now... I’m quite dry... not yet ready...,” I
tried to say but you did it just the same. But I did not mind because your so
gentle, not like that red haired kid who bit me so hard that I was black for a
day or two.
She dressed me red and put glitter
on me. I was so shy. After all, I was used only to nudes, and red did seem so
bold. But, when I heard the words, ‘you may now kiss the bride', I went up
proudly. That kiss must have felt like the Oscar and me the red carpet!
Just three years later, I saw red
again. I was dressed in red but now there was no laughter around. Only screams
and tears filled the room and I looked on in silence. A silence born not out of
choice but forced upon me - for no matter how much I twisted and tried, words
just failed me. Those cancerous cells had clutched her throat and given me an
unwanted rest.
Let it not be said that I did not
try by all those in the pink of health. Only Liz knows the truth of what I did
suffer. Then, one day, she coated me again in glitter. She sent me a message
that she wants to tell Michael an, ‘I love you’ once again-at least one last
time. He came home from work and she made me smile. That made him press on me. Then,
she told me to say it.., 'say it, you idiot... please!' She said. I tried… I
tried till it ached... till the cells grated but I couldn't.
He came back from a wash and
started making sandwiches. 'Say it... come on, try', she said. I tried again
and again till her eyes watered. She lifted her hands and called him towards
her. He came and wiped her tears. She moved me frantically in all directions
but I just couldn't do it. He saw the pain and hugged her hard and tears washed
his cheeks.
"Michael, I love you! - Just say that, come on!" She ordered me
again. I gave it all I had and tried. It was the fist sound I had made in a
year-"Miciaargghh” And it turned out to be the last. It’s hard and funny
to think how we folks start with a cry and end with one.
©ArchanaSarat2015
That last line really got to me. Starting and ending with a cry. Wow.
ReplyDeleteGood luck with the A to Z Challenge!
S. L. Hennessy
http://pensuasion.blogspot.com/
Thank you Hennessy.
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